In January 2008, the famous German film, theater and opera director, actor and installation artist Christoph Schlingensief was diagnosed with lung cancer. His one lung was removed, followed by chemotherapy, yet the prognosis remained uncertain. "I had to learn to lie on the couch doing nothing but think."
A few days following the diagnosis, Christoph Schlingensief begins to have conversations — with himself, with his friends, with his dead father, with God — with the recorder turned on most of the time. Sometimes these conversations would sound angry and defiant, sometimes sad and desperate. The focus is always on the same questions posed by the disease: Who is he? Who else can he become? How does one keep working when the rhythm of the world no longer coincides with his? How does one learn to cope with his disease? How does one accept his death? And where is God?
This diary presents an impressive example of introspection in the face of illness and death, a cure for silence, and, last but not least, a confession of love to this world.
